My Journey of Healing

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I began practicing yoga over ten years ago, beginning solely for the physical aspect. Yoga found me at a dark, disconnected time in my life, and soon after starting, it became more than just a body exercise. The movements and poses of yoga first woke up my awareness on the physical plane, reconnecting with my body, opening my mind, and beginning my journey. 

For most of my life, I suffered from an overpowering anxious mind, disconnection from an overstressed body, deep-seated feelings of unworthiness, and unprocessed past traumas I unknowingly held in my physical and energetic bodies. I was numb to any true internal peace, forgetting what real relaxation felt like. My anxious mind and stressed body ran my life, I was on autopilot at their mercy.

Upon this deepening of awareness, I realized I was running on constant survival mode, both body and mind. The threat alert was constantly triggering, but rarely was there an actual threat in the present reality. Instead, the threats stemmed from past memories and unprocessed traumas/emotions, going beyond my conscious mind into that of the unconscious. So I wasn’t even aware the threats were firing, but my body & mind were always preparing for battle when not actually needed, keeping me in a chronic state of high stress. At some point along the way, I decided no more. I chose to look at what was hurting me deep down. I chose love over fear. I chose to be still and observe. I chose to let go and surrender. I chose to open and trust. I chose to heal. 

I started exploring the practice of meditation & breathwork, which absolutely transformed my life, both inner and outer. I rediscovered the immense power of my breath, the existence of subtle energy, the vitality of present moment awareness, and who I truly am as a divine human being. Chanting mantras had an imperative influence on my journey with their healing vibrations. With a consistent yoga & meditation practice and holistic lifestyle changes, such as nutrition improvement, regular salt baths, and daily nature walks, I experienced the feelings of internal balance, steadiness, ease, and clarity cultivated by these efforts. 

From there, I had a solid foundation to go deeper with my journey of healing into that of past traumas. For years, I worked with amazing mentors to release and heal past traumas, both personal and ancestral. I learned of how we hold trauma in our bodies and DNA if it is not felt and processed - leading to physical and mental problems. I saw these emotional and energetic releases manifest on the physical layer of my body, opening my eyes to the existence and interconnection of all layers of self. I was soon after attuned to Reiki, and this God blessed Universal life force energy has given way to much healing in my body mind and soul. I am deeply grateful to have it for my own wellbeing and to offer others.

My practice of yoga, breathwork, meditation, and reiki has become my medicine. This medicine has given me steadiness and ease in body & mind. They are the tools I reach for when stress is high and the anxious mind starts spiraling, acknowledging this journey is cyclical, not linear. From this balanced state, I’ve deeply connected with my heart & soul, restoring my faith & trust in Jesus Christ and God Almighty. And I've found, it is through God's grace that true healing & peace come.

I began going to therapy, giving me space to talk about the traumas and self-work I’ve done, to further process, release, and restore.  After my younger brother suddenly passed away, these practices helped me move through the intense grief, providing a safe space to feel and process. This grieving has strengthened my connection with Jesus Christ and God as it can be too much to bear. Resting in God's hands & creation of Mama Earth is sometimes the only thing we can do. Being in present awareness, I often connect with my brother's spirit through nature, which has brought me joy and peace admist the intense feelings of grief. 

I’ve deepened my knowledge of and experience with herbalism and natural supplements, honoring that this beautiful earth provides the medicines & nourishments we need to survive & thrive, living in alignment with her. My walks through Mother Nature immersed in the present moment with her, breathing deeply and praying to God have become a daily ritual.

The knowledge I've gained from my education, completed trainings, and personal experiences have imprinted me with a deep level of understanding. I understand the science behind these practices and have personally experienced how powerful they are. Even deeper, I see the interconnection of all, the incredible beauty & medicines nature offers, the ongoing ebbs & flows of life, the blessings of abundance in gratitude, and the importance of knowing true self. While my inner exploration will be forever ongoing, I am now in a place where I can guide others on their journey toward finding internal balance, relaxing restoration, and healing reconnection. 

This journey of healing has brought both light and dark moments, filled with many tears and transformative changes. And to be honest, the symptoms of healing (emotional/mental/physical) got worse before they got better - this is called the “healing crisis” that can arise from doing deep healing work. I have felt all the pain that was buried over my lifetime and ancestral lifetimes come up to be processed + released both physically & energetically. But I trust the releases that happen, I trust in the healing, I trust in God. Lifting myself back up every time I fall to my knees in surrender. Coming back to my intention of healing each time I drop into lower states. Coming back to God, continuing on in faith & trust in the name of Lord Jesus Christ, God Almighty.

Flowing with ease in faith.

Substantial hard work and deep introspection lie under what is seen today, but I can assure you from personal experience that it is absolutely worth the effort. I finally feel at ease in my body and mind, living more from a socially engaged mindset instead of constant survival. Feeling more balanced between moments of stress and moments of rest with a regulated nervous system. I feel more at peace in my being and life than ever before, feeling so much gratitude, joy, and love. My faith in God Most High, Creator of All is deeply rooted. And my practice continues to ground this trust, keeping me steady and at ease throughout this ever-changing life. 

Trusting in God’s divine timing & will of all. 

Connecting with God Almighty above, Mother Earth below, and Soul Self within. 

Holy & Spirit meeting in the heart space.

I honor the universal divine consciousness of all, while also honoring my personal divine consciousness within. 

The same divinity lies within you.

Sending love.

In peace & gratitude,  
Caitlin